What is love…
This little word, only four letters long,
yet so powerful
You can’t touch it because it’s not a physical thing
yet you know it exists
But what is love…
Is it love when you think of your dead mother
and you can hear inside you what she would have said if she could…
Is it love if you do things that you know she would have loved…
You never know what little thing will turn your feelings in motion
when someone close to you has died
These little things can be
a commercial,
a picture,
a memory,
a fruit,
a movie,
a treadmill
Yes you never know which thing will make you blue
when someone you cared about is gone forever
Is it love or grief when your eyes get teary by these small things…
Things that mean nothing to others but the world to you
Maybe it’s grief since you lost someone
Or is it love you’re feeling
since these little things make you feel so much….
I try to believe that everything happens for a reason
but that’s difficult at times
Because I can’t understand why my mother had to die all of a sudden
It felt like my world turned upside down
I was left alone with all the feelings
Feelings that make you feel too much
Once in a while it feels like a storm is going on inside my heart
I thank God that he sent me an angel to help me get through this
An angel that my mother met briefly before she went to heaven
I believe that angels comes in different shapes
Like a cat purring in your lap
Or a friend who spends time with you
Or just a feeling of peace inside you
But what is love…
I believe angels are love
So maybe love actually is a physical thing
Or is it just a feeling…
Who knows…
But I do know that angels are both visible and invisible
You never know where angels are
If someone will turn up next to you when you least expect it
Or if it just flies above your head right at this moment
to protect you from all the danger
Although love is a wonderful thing it also hurts…
Soon it’s Holiday season and it will hurt when I see all the Christmas lights,
because that was the last thing I talked with my mother about
I miss you mom…
